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Feel frm de heart is key to truth
If u dun believe mi,
den dun even bother
to ask mi in de 1st place
I dun entertain ppl who r nt worth my time
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Friday, August 31, 2007
look at de "decorated" board.....
wed
21 ppl didnt cum sch sia...break record liao...lobang didnt sort of surprised instead he lyk expected it...ish all becoz of an bloody kaypoh baotoh kia in our class...he go tell lobang during de nite study de day b4...no wonder made till de whole class so du lan him...
he realli was qian bian de...noe can alr ma...baotoh for wad....nothing betta to do meh...ying qi gong fen...serves him rite...i m not surprised if his things gone missing or spoilt...chin kiat go topple his table ended up ish topple wrong one topple jonathan's...but nvm...aaron & me alr topple tat baotoh kia table & chair...aaron go bent de table leg & all those metal bars underneath...he summore turn de whole table upside down den he & chin kiat stand on those metal bars...realli veri amazing leh...aaron said it was easy to do tat but i cant do tat...lols...they pro sia...
aaron oso switched tat baotoh kia table wif jonathan's which was alr a bit broken at de edge...he go bang it against de floor to let de crack be bigger...wakaka...jonathan even threw all his maths revision papers into de dustbin..he was lucky & smart not to leave his folio under de table otherwise i tink tat will kena too...see?he has no frens now...he ish juz simply an idoit who lyk to blow his own trumpet & stab his frens in de bck...
so sian for de whole day sia...maths,hist cher didnt cum...all periods free without any cher in de class sia except for mt...tats y i can sms till hp no batt auto off...
nizam & weijie they all go draw tat baotoh kia pic...plus de word "no.1 brain surgeon & Nascar driver" in sacarsm...& plan to leave it till de next day...
ytd
those guys realli mean wad they say sia...in de morning they all came early to "decorate" de whole whiteboard...lols...was realli funnie...everyone was lyk looking forward to his reaction when he saw it...but he pretend nothing happen & was realli veri quiet for de whole day...
serves u right...if u had not baotoh u wun even got dis treatment...u shld make an public apology to de class...otherwise u will probably continue to hav dis treatment ba...
i simply cant stand dis kinda of ppl...tink himself so great wor...clever ish enough, dun try to be a smart aleck...elephant skin sehhs...
2dae
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!
2dae no lesson...woohoo!we watched de games...chers vs students...de chers were quite gd in playing de games too....hahax...
but we knew another thing 2dae...some ppl actually cancelled other ppl names so tat when de chers draw lots they assumed those cancelled names r not participating...wtf...selfish ppl..ish those bitches in 4/7 who's under tat charcoal cca who done it...
tats realli unfair,k?come on,it's oni a game...do they need to use dis kind of underhand means juz to make sure they got to play wif de chers?i cant believe there's dis kind of ppl in de world sia...
we went for de acer's day walk ltr...dis yr change route...de dist was even longer den previous...gosh...i was sweating lyk hell man...our class realli dun care & walk veri slowly...chun hian veri clever...call his maid ask her bring breakfast down...wakaka...lyk tat oso can wor...hehes...
21 ppl didnt cum sch sia...break record liao...lobang didnt sort of surprised instead he lyk expected it...ish all becoz of an bloody kaypoh baotoh kia in our class...he go tell lobang during de nite study de day b4...no wonder made till de whole class so du lan him...
he realli was qian bian de...noe can alr ma...baotoh for wad....nothing betta to do meh...ying qi gong fen...serves him rite...i m not surprised if his things gone missing or spoilt...chin kiat go topple his table ended up ish topple wrong one topple jonathan's...but nvm...aaron & me alr topple tat baotoh kia table & chair...aaron go bent de table leg & all those metal bars underneath...he summore turn de whole table upside down den he & chin kiat stand on those metal bars...realli veri amazing leh...aaron said it was easy to do tat but i cant do tat...lols...they pro sia...
aaron oso switched tat baotoh kia table wif jonathan's which was alr a bit broken at de edge...he go bang it against de floor to let de crack be bigger...wakaka...jonathan even threw all his maths revision papers into de dustbin..he was lucky & smart not to leave his folio under de table otherwise i tink tat will kena too...see?he has no frens now...he ish juz simply an idoit who lyk to blow his own trumpet & stab his frens in de bck...
so sian for de whole day sia...maths,hist cher didnt cum...all periods free without any cher in de class sia except for mt...tats y i can sms till hp no batt auto off...
nizam & weijie they all go draw tat baotoh kia pic...plus de word "no.1 brain surgeon & Nascar driver" in sacarsm...& plan to leave it till de next day...
ytd
those guys realli mean wad they say sia...in de morning they all came early to "decorate" de whole whiteboard...lols...was realli funnie...everyone was lyk looking forward to his reaction when he saw it...but he pretend nothing happen & was realli veri quiet for de whole day...
serves u right...if u had not baotoh u wun even got dis treatment...u shld make an public apology to de class...otherwise u will probably continue to hav dis treatment ba...
i simply cant stand dis kinda of ppl...tink himself so great wor...clever ish enough, dun try to be a smart aleck...elephant skin sehhs...
2dae
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!
2dae no lesson...woohoo!we watched de games...chers vs students...de chers were quite gd in playing de games too....hahax...
but we knew another thing 2dae...some ppl actually cancelled other ppl names so tat when de chers draw lots they assumed those cancelled names r not participating...wtf...selfish ppl..ish those bitches in 4/7 who's under tat charcoal cca who done it...
tats realli unfair,k?come on,it's oni a game...do they need to use dis kind of underhand means juz to make sure they got to play wif de chers?i cant believe there's dis kind of ppl in de world sia...
we went for de acer's day walk ltr...dis yr change route...de dist was even longer den previous...gosh...i was sweating lyk hell man...our class realli dun care & walk veri slowly...chun hian veri clever...call his maid ask her bring breakfast down...wakaka...lyk tat oso can wor...hehes...
i didnt go bck to pri sch la...lazy sia...besides nobody accompany me too...my pri 5 chi cher oso not there liao...go there oni can see ms ang face...arghh...scary sehhs...will hav nightmares de...tats wad my frens said...lols...
ohya...4get to tell u...i passed my eng paper 2 & hist SBQ...hist 1st time pass sia...miracle...trust mi...miracles do happen...i will continue to make more miracles...made de impossible to becum possible...i tink wad i dun believe will be wad i will achieve ba...for my case...hahaz...=D
he juz now got online...didnt tok to him la...next time when i tink of enough qns to ask him den chat ba...i noe it's impossible btw us unless he lyk mi la...but i oso dunno wad he tink ma...nvm...lyk i had said...time will confirm everything...perhaps will change after his b'dae or after o levels...
signing off liao lo...
at 1853...
ohya...4get to tell u...i passed my eng paper 2 & hist SBQ...hist 1st time pass sia...miracle...trust mi...miracles do happen...i will continue to make more miracles...made de impossible to becum possible...i tink wad i dun believe will be wad i will achieve ba...for my case...hahaz...=D
he juz now got online...didnt tok to him la...next time when i tink of enough qns to ask him den chat ba...i noe it's impossible btw us unless he lyk mi la...but i oso dunno wad he tink ma...nvm...lyk i had said...time will confirm everything...perhaps will change after his b'dae or after o levels...
signing off liao lo...
at 1853...
Saturday, August 25, 2007
ytd
no hist sia...quite of looking forward to getting bck de hist SEQ de...i dun wna do hw during de last 2 periods so i was finding ppl to play reversi wif mi...but ppl r either doin d&t or art...i was so bored...den weijie switched place wif jin run...i asked him play reversi wif mi but surprisely he dunno how to play...so i asked ginger lo since he said he knew how to play...
ginger multi-task sia...play reversi wif mi, help weijie wif d&t and doin hist SBQ hw...pro sia...i tot oni gals can multi-task...lolx...
BHH sis selina & xinying was slping thruout de 2 periods as they were simply too tired & summore de weather ish so suitable for slping...i was tired earlier but gonna class dismissed le ma so super hyper wan slp oso cant fall asleep...
weijie kena beaten by mi using de long eraser...serves him right...who ask him got nothin betta to do & suan mi...noe pain hor...den next time dun suan mi lo...hahax...
afternoon went out wif mic to buy teacher's day present...b4 goin hm got go comic connection...finally found de pair keychain i wanted...yeah...
2dae
finally can cum online le...now hp & com both sot sia...i got 2 days didnt use hp liao...gosh...will die de...how to live without fone...summore i alarm clock & date depend on it...de worst of all, i cant see his face!!!sob...
2dae com guai let me online...juz nw he got online for awhile lyk de previous...status not put to away...but didnt tok to him la...next time ba...
delighted...
signing off at 1901...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
no hist sia...quite of looking forward to getting bck de hist SEQ de...i dun wna do hw during de last 2 periods so i was finding ppl to play reversi wif mi...but ppl r either doin d&t or art...i was so bored...den weijie switched place wif jin run...i asked him play reversi wif mi but surprisely he dunno how to play...so i asked ginger lo since he said he knew how to play...
ginger multi-task sia...play reversi wif mi, help weijie wif d&t and doin hist SBQ hw...pro sia...i tot oni gals can multi-task...lolx...
BHH sis selina & xinying was slping thruout de 2 periods as they were simply too tired & summore de weather ish so suitable for slping...i was tired earlier but gonna class dismissed le ma so super hyper wan slp oso cant fall asleep...
weijie kena beaten by mi using de long eraser...serves him right...who ask him got nothin betta to do & suan mi...noe pain hor...den next time dun suan mi lo...hahax...
afternoon went out wif mic to buy teacher's day present...b4 goin hm got go comic connection...finally found de pair keychain i wanted...yeah...
2dae
finally can cum online le...now hp & com both sot sia...i got 2 days didnt use hp liao...gosh...will die de...how to live without fone...summore i alarm clock & date depend on it...de worst of all, i cant see his face!!!sob...
2dae com guai let me online...juz nw he got online for awhile lyk de previous...status not put to away...but didnt tok to him la...next time ba...
delighted...
signing off at 1901...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
well...de matter was solved le...i was not considered cheating...i might be given a chance to retake...but ish not a sure...muz see wad SEAB say...but at least i got a hope to hold on to...
realli wish to hav a retake...mdm kamisah notes i tink ish gone forever liao le...since tat cher ish not cumin bck to our sch...realli if time was to go bck , i would nvr ever flip de page corners again...but it's impossible...
realli thx mdm kamisah for all she had done for mi...she's realli ish de best cher i had ever met...
he's finally online 2dae & status was not to away...veri excited to chat wif him...but chat till halfway my com sot de whole screen blank den had to restart de com again...actualli wna save tat conversation de but no choice ma...nvm...i chat wif him all over again...still can save dis conversation...wakaka...it has been months since we last tok...
confirm liao le...he's not de guy me & mic meet on 7 july...he said he got take public transport to tampines but definitely not to city hall...he said summore if there's him & he saw mi surely will recognise & say hi to mi de...i told him tat guy wore specs...he said it might be him as he got 1 day broke his lenses...he was trying to recall if tat guy could be him...
he said i shld go ask tat guy wad ish his name & summore take photo to let him see how alike he & tat guy was...lolx...he wonder how de guy looks lyk & summore wanted to be frens wif him...hahax...he's so friendly wor...
he had not been online all dis while coz he busy...he was goin in & out of malaysia, went to shanghai & hangzhou i tink too...he oni came bck sg for a veri short while...i was shocked to hear tat he was alr bck in aus liao le...lyk so fast sia...
he still had to study 1 more yr b4 he can graduate...he had changed both his aus & sg hp no. ...but not to worry...i got de new one...hahax...last time memorise de 97937969 no. now muz 4get & rmb de new one...chatting wif him made me felt so relaxed...i had forgotten all those bad things temporarily le...
i believe tat de guy i met on 7 july ish not him...i trust tat he's not trying to avoid mi as he was realli busy...i m still frens wif him...i had not lose a male fren...hooray...3 cheers for tat...his status was put to away now...so dun disturb him le la...
feeling veri excited, elated, delighted..all words of de meaning happy...
signing off at 1716...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
realli wish to hav a retake...mdm kamisah notes i tink ish gone forever liao le...since tat cher ish not cumin bck to our sch...realli if time was to go bck , i would nvr ever flip de page corners again...but it's impossible...
realli thx mdm kamisah for all she had done for mi...she's realli ish de best cher i had ever met...
he's finally online 2dae & status was not to away...veri excited to chat wif him...but chat till halfway my com sot de whole screen blank den had to restart de com again...actualli wna save tat conversation de but no choice ma...nvm...i chat wif him all over again...still can save dis conversation...wakaka...it has been months since we last tok...
confirm liao le...he's not de guy me & mic meet on 7 july...he said he got take public transport to tampines but definitely not to city hall...he said summore if there's him & he saw mi surely will recognise & say hi to mi de...i told him tat guy wore specs...he said it might be him as he got 1 day broke his lenses...he was trying to recall if tat guy could be him...
he said i shld go ask tat guy wad ish his name & summore take photo to let him see how alike he & tat guy was...lolx...he wonder how de guy looks lyk & summore wanted to be frens wif him...hahax...he's so friendly wor...
he had not been online all dis while coz he busy...he was goin in & out of malaysia, went to shanghai & hangzhou i tink too...he oni came bck sg for a veri short while...i was shocked to hear tat he was alr bck in aus liao le...lyk so fast sia...
he still had to study 1 more yr b4 he can graduate...he had changed both his aus & sg hp no. ...but not to worry...i got de new one...hahax...last time memorise de 97937969 no. now muz 4get & rmb de new one...chatting wif him made me felt so relaxed...i had forgotten all those bad things temporarily le...
i believe tat de guy i met on 7 july ish not him...i trust tat he's not trying to avoid mi as he was realli busy...i m still frens wif him...i had not lose a male fren...hooray...3 cheers for tat...his status was put to away now...so dun disturb him le la...
feeling veri excited, elated, delighted..all words of de meaning happy...
signing off at 1716...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
thx mic ytd for listening to mi tok abt 1 hr lyk tat non-stop...sori ar...
ok...now tok abt eng o level oral...there ish gonna to be vulgarities...
though my eng was bad, but i m veri confident for de oral...i put alot of effort too juz lyk in chi...but de 1st thing tat old hag said was "wad ish tat?can i hav a look?"
den of coz i passed de notes to her obediently la...& wad she say? "wow...wad ish dis?they r ans!do u noe tat dis ish considered cheating?"
i actualli wanted to argue wif her tat we r oso allowed to bring in notes during de mt o level oral...but i didnt...coz she ish examiner ma..wad they say ish alwae rite...fine...i apologise abt 3 times lyk tat saying i didnt noe tat we cant bring in notes...but i didnt read them..i put them on de floor...
i admit tat i got flip corner of de pages & see if it ish "from my perspective"...but after tat i close...they juz happened to see mi fliping de page corners...all blame my itchy fingers...y did i do tat...but i didnt open de whole thing lyk ish nobody business...
den i heard her discussing sumthing wif de young cher & i heard her saying "we cannot give dis bck to her...dis ish cheating!she ish not supposed to bring dis into de exam hall..."
but SEAB allowed notes in exam hall & they didnt specify juz at which time we r not supposed to read de notes...
i was lyk completely stunned standing there till de young cher say "pls take a seat"...
my reading was quite ok as 'th' ish no longer a prob to me anymore...i got stumble abit...den when proceed to pic & conversation it totally sux man...tat old hag looked completely uninterested & veri annoyed...all de while ish de young cher maintain eye contact wif mi...
becoz of wad de old hag say earlier, my confidence reduced to almost 0 %...i pause alot & got prompted many times...i forgot to say alot of things...character, purpose, personality, lesson learnt...which ish crucial if u wanted an A...die liao le...my A gone le...still tink can depend on my oral grades to pull up my eng...haiz...no hope le...
after oral i shed a few tears...den they say ish not my fault & ish oni tactics used by chers...i cant believe i was affected by tat...mt oso lyk tat but i was ok...y did all de unfortunate things happen to mi?!ppl got gd chers while i suay suay get tat old hag...juz my luck la...1st ish de mt o level results & now dis...it's not worth crying over it so i began to scold tat old hag wif de others at de canteen...
for mi ish over liao ish ok...but wad i m worried ish her mood ish bad & might affect de performance & marks of my frens who were after mi...she realli veri rude...she stopped my classmates b4 they had even finished tokin...wtf...wth ish dis...
de worst ish mdm kamisah cried...she felt tat it was unjust for mi as she knew i put in alot of effort in dis oral...i see her cry i oso wan to cry sia...sori tat i had disappointed u...i will do my best & wk hard on my paper ! & 2...
thx mdm kamisah for wad she had done for mi...i realli appreciate it...u too cheer up ,k?
tat idoit old bitch ignored mdm kamisah & left quickly when she called her...fuck...& de notes was wif her...i shld be daring enough juz now to stop her & ask de security uncle for help too...y m i so coward?
y m i alwae de root cause?if it oni affected mi ish alrite but dis oso affected others...gosh...i realli dunno wad to do sia...
during p.e i injured ppl & now becoz of my matter mdm kamisah went up to argue wif de examiners...den tat old bitch mood veri bad...heard from mdm kamisah tat when she went up tat old bitch was not even listening to students tokin...instead she was looking behind at those after mi to see who got bring notes...kau...
we can sue her for taking away de notes but she had alr left...she could go bck delete mdm kamisah name below & scan it saying it was hers...knn...& she could photocopied it for her own sch students...tat was mdm kamisah & ms sajnani hardwk & ideas...gosh...it's all becoz of mi...y m i such a jinx?
tat stupid, idiotic, selfish old bitch juz took de notes away lyk tat...curse her man...all de vulgarities shld be used to desribe her & all bad things shld happened to her too...
mdm kamisah said if tat old hag wanted de notes she could kindly ask from her & she will print for her not take de main fantastic notes...
on way hm wif BHH sis we saw tat young cher tokin on fone...i went hm while BHH sis continued to follow her...they wanted to hear if she was tokin to tat old hag...& wad she said...they probably may record it if possible as they were so close behind her & she doesn't even realise tat...i dunno wad happen after tat le...
i m losing confidence in my studies...all things didnt turn out to be wad i wanted...i felt so weak & helpless...getting angry & upset was not de solution...in less den 2 mths i m taking o levels...i felt lyk giving up...i had suffered enough setbacks...
signing off at 1914...
Monday, August 13, 2007
my cousin hui ping
me & my same age cousin hengzhu
me & hui ping
innocent hengzhu(taken by mi when
i suddenly call him while he's drinking soup)
ytd
go grandma hse...surprisely my pri 6 cousin didnt bring her maths to ask mi..whew...do phy prelim paper from other sch...do till 1 plus...thx deon for accompanying me last night thru sms...btw...happy beloved b'dae!may all ur wishes cum true!
2dae
FUCK!KNN!KNS!TMD!JI BYE!
mt o level didnt get A1...out of 180 ppl, 20 got A1 & 21 got A2...i cant believe i m not one of them!totally under expectations sia...i expect to get minimum A2 de...i cant believe tat idiot bitch get betta den mi!!!went to toilet & vent out frustration...knocked my head hard against de wall...but sound heard was too loud...how i wish i could knock myself fainted...
got hear BHH sis calling mi in de toilet but i kept quiet...i juz wanted some peace & quiet...after tat went bck class take storybk go library read till bell rang...met ginger at 3rd floor staircase there...it's juz simply an coincidence...pls dun misunderstand...
thx gals & ginger for de concern...i'm fine...after crying eveything ish ok le...tats mi...sori to hav made u all worried...congrats to BHH sis for getting destinctions...yeah!
gonna retake at end of yr...realli...i cant believe i didnt got an A...mt ish my strongest sub...i spent de most time on it...i put in much more effort on dis sub den others...yet de result ish unsatisfactory...everytime mdm tan say some chi gd ones their results r not performing & 2dae she said muz be mentally prepared...tats probably pointing to mi ba...
wad u believe is wad u will achieve...wad a lump of bullshit...
I CAN, I WANT & I MUZ GET A1 AT END OF YR!!!
whenever i'm sad i will look at his pic...seeing his smile made me felt betta...to mi, tats de best consolation...
signing off at 1637...
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
ok...now tok abt eng o level oral...there ish gonna to be vulgarities...
though my eng was bad, but i m veri confident for de oral...i put alot of effort too juz lyk in chi...but de 1st thing tat old hag said was "wad ish tat?can i hav a look?"
den of coz i passed de notes to her obediently la...& wad she say? "wow...wad ish dis?they r ans!do u noe tat dis ish considered cheating?"
i actualli wanted to argue wif her tat we r oso allowed to bring in notes during de mt o level oral...but i didnt...coz she ish examiner ma..wad they say ish alwae rite...fine...i apologise abt 3 times lyk tat saying i didnt noe tat we cant bring in notes...but i didnt read them..i put them on de floor...
i admit tat i got flip corner of de pages & see if it ish "from my perspective"...but after tat i close...they juz happened to see mi fliping de page corners...all blame my itchy fingers...y did i do tat...but i didnt open de whole thing lyk ish nobody business...
den i heard her discussing sumthing wif de young cher & i heard her saying "we cannot give dis bck to her...dis ish cheating!she ish not supposed to bring dis into de exam hall..."
but SEAB allowed notes in exam hall & they didnt specify juz at which time we r not supposed to read de notes...
i was lyk completely stunned standing there till de young cher say "pls take a seat"...
my reading was quite ok as 'th' ish no longer a prob to me anymore...i got stumble abit...den when proceed to pic & conversation it totally sux man...tat old hag looked completely uninterested & veri annoyed...all de while ish de young cher maintain eye contact wif mi...
becoz of wad de old hag say earlier, my confidence reduced to almost 0 %...i pause alot & got prompted many times...i forgot to say alot of things...character, purpose, personality, lesson learnt...which ish crucial if u wanted an A...die liao le...my A gone le...still tink can depend on my oral grades to pull up my eng...haiz...no hope le...
after oral i shed a few tears...den they say ish not my fault & ish oni tactics used by chers...i cant believe i was affected by tat...mt oso lyk tat but i was ok...y did all de unfortunate things happen to mi?!ppl got gd chers while i suay suay get tat old hag...juz my luck la...1st ish de mt o level results & now dis...it's not worth crying over it so i began to scold tat old hag wif de others at de canteen...
for mi ish over liao ish ok...but wad i m worried ish her mood ish bad & might affect de performance & marks of my frens who were after mi...she realli veri rude...she stopped my classmates b4 they had even finished tokin...wtf...wth ish dis...
de worst ish mdm kamisah cried...she felt tat it was unjust for mi as she knew i put in alot of effort in dis oral...i see her cry i oso wan to cry sia...sori tat i had disappointed u...i will do my best & wk hard on my paper ! & 2...
thx mdm kamisah for wad she had done for mi...i realli appreciate it...u too cheer up ,k?
tat idoit old bitch ignored mdm kamisah & left quickly when she called her...fuck...& de notes was wif her...i shld be daring enough juz now to stop her & ask de security uncle for help too...y m i so coward?
y m i alwae de root cause?if it oni affected mi ish alrite but dis oso affected others...gosh...i realli dunno wad to do sia...
during p.e i injured ppl & now becoz of my matter mdm kamisah went up to argue wif de examiners...den tat old bitch mood veri bad...heard from mdm kamisah tat when she went up tat old bitch was not even listening to students tokin...instead she was looking behind at those after mi to see who got bring notes...kau...
we can sue her for taking away de notes but she had alr left...she could go bck delete mdm kamisah name below & scan it saying it was hers...knn...& she could photocopied it for her own sch students...tat was mdm kamisah & ms sajnani hardwk & ideas...gosh...it's all becoz of mi...y m i such a jinx?
tat stupid, idiotic, selfish old bitch juz took de notes away lyk tat...curse her man...all de vulgarities shld be used to desribe her & all bad things shld happened to her too...
mdm kamisah said if tat old hag wanted de notes she could kindly ask from her & she will print for her not take de main fantastic notes...
on way hm wif BHH sis we saw tat young cher tokin on fone...i went hm while BHH sis continued to follow her...they wanted to hear if she was tokin to tat old hag...& wad she said...they probably may record it if possible as they were so close behind her & she doesn't even realise tat...i dunno wad happen after tat le...
i m losing confidence in my studies...all things didnt turn out to be wad i wanted...i felt so weak & helpless...getting angry & upset was not de solution...in less den 2 mths i m taking o levels...i felt lyk giving up...i had suffered enough setbacks...
signing off at 1914...
Monday, August 13, 2007
my cousin hui ping
me & my same age cousin hengzhu
me & hui ping
innocent hengzhu(taken by mi when
i suddenly call him while he's drinking soup)
ytd
go grandma hse...surprisely my pri 6 cousin didnt bring her maths to ask mi..whew...do phy prelim paper from other sch...do till 1 plus...thx deon for accompanying me last night thru sms...btw...happy beloved b'dae!may all ur wishes cum true!
2dae
FUCK!KNN!KNS!TMD!JI BYE!
mt o level didnt get A1...out of 180 ppl, 20 got A1 & 21 got A2...i cant believe i m not one of them!totally under expectations sia...i expect to get minimum A2 de...i cant believe tat idiot bitch get betta den mi!!!went to toilet & vent out frustration...knocked my head hard against de wall...but sound heard was too loud...how i wish i could knock myself fainted...
got hear BHH sis calling mi in de toilet but i kept quiet...i juz wanted some peace & quiet...after tat went bck class take storybk go library read till bell rang...met ginger at 3rd floor staircase there...it's juz simply an coincidence...pls dun misunderstand...
thx gals & ginger for de concern...i'm fine...after crying eveything ish ok le...tats mi...sori to hav made u all worried...congrats to BHH sis for getting destinctions...yeah!
gonna retake at end of yr...realli...i cant believe i didnt got an A...mt ish my strongest sub...i spent de most time on it...i put in much more effort on dis sub den others...yet de result ish unsatisfactory...everytime mdm tan say some chi gd ones their results r not performing & 2dae she said muz be mentally prepared...tats probably pointing to mi ba...
wad u believe is wad u will achieve...wad a lump of bullshit...
I CAN, I WANT & I MUZ GET A1 AT END OF YR!!!
whenever i'm sad i will look at his pic...seeing his smile made me felt betta...to mi, tats de best consolation...
signing off at 1637...
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
HAPPY 42th B'DAE TO SINGAPORE!!!
national day...woohoo!!!4 days of hols...
it was rather boring 2dae...kept on singing songs...however there was one gd thingy...we were spared by mdm peh's singing of "my ppl,my hm" dis yr...=D
mr ong sang de songs...it was quite horrible though...he sang b4 de singer sang...he sumhow cant keep up wif de speed of de song...& he too sang out of tone a few times...gosh...
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
2dae tired sia....summore 1st period geog...made mi even wan to slp...phy go lab do prac...hate phy prac...everytime do until veri pek chek...esp drawing de graph.
at break wna sms selina to ask if she's betta...end up my hp no batt auto off i oso dunno...haiz...ytd 4got to charge...
pc & mt period was so boring 2dae...i felt lyk rotting away wif nothin to do...i didnt bring my storybk or maths assessment to do...
in de afternoon de weather was so damn hot...plus no fan or wind...i dozed off during chem without noticing...until mrs ang suddenly call my name den i got a shock...she asked mi wad ish de rxn of acid with water...i was lyk huh?ended up i anyhow say explosive rxn lo...to my surprise i tink it was correct ma...heng sia...after tat i was more alert liao...
after sch saw my pri sch principal, mrs chin...said hi to her & chat awhile...
when will u online?
signing off at 1736...
Saturday, August 04, 2007
at break wna sms selina to ask if she's betta...end up my hp no batt auto off i oso dunno...haiz...ytd 4got to charge...
pc & mt period was so boring 2dae...i felt lyk rotting away wif nothin to do...i didnt bring my storybk or maths assessment to do...
in de afternoon de weather was so damn hot...plus no fan or wind...i dozed off during chem without noticing...until mrs ang suddenly call my name den i got a shock...she asked mi wad ish de rxn of acid with water...i was lyk huh?ended up i anyhow say explosive rxn lo...to my surprise i tink it was correct ma...heng sia...after tat i was more alert liao...
after sch saw my pri sch principal, mrs chin...said hi to her & chat awhile...
when will u online?
signing off at 1736...
Saturday, August 04, 2007
ytd
prep exam finally finish liao le...woohoo!!! i can hav a short break now...after tat muz wk at full blast le...hahax...
went to de popular fair at expo...didnt even noe there's a popular fair sia...ish mic read newspaper tell mi de...popular now got pop club or got any bk fair oso didnt mail letter to members...dunno y...popular fair till dis sun...tink i not goin again liao le ba...
reach hm at abt 10 plus...was so tired...coz after geog paper i rush hm, bathe & went out straight away...
2dae
morning go sch find ms foong for geog...den happened to noe tat mt o level results ish gonna cum out on 13 aug...which ish oso deon's b'dae...still so long sia...i expect it to be b4 national day de...ms foong say she not free next thur for mi & selina to teach us geog...she say de 4N now prelim...she wna focus on them 1st...den when it's our turn den she will focus on us...haiz...nvm...maybe she's free on sat...
juz now got receive msg from him...i was shocked to see tat de msg was from him sia...my heart was beating so fast...wondering wad's de content...but to my disappointment, it was juz simply an empty msg...awww...sob...i got reply bck "???" but he didnt reply...i tink he ish accidentally press wrong button de ba...how can he be wan send msg to mi...he's lyk realli avoiding mi or sumthing...
i wna things to resume normal lyk b4...i hate dis kinda of tense atmosphere & feeling...i wan to let u noe tat after u told mi u wanted us to be oni frens i didnt tok to u again when u r online...tats becoz i was veri sad...i hav no courage to face u...but now i hav...if u juz wan us be frens den let it be...but it somehow seems to mi tat u r trying to avoid mi...i juz wna tok to u as a fren...
i juz wanted to confirm wif u if u r de guy i saw on 7 july...unless u r realli him, i cant tink of any reason y u avoid mi...in de past too hav other gals lyk & confess to u ...& u rejected them...but u still can chat & laugh wif them...y cant u be lyk tat wif mi?izzit becoz de reason tat they all hav stead so u can not worry?muz i hav a stead b4 things could resume normal?
now ish lyk we cant even be frens anymore...izzit tat serious?i dun mind....truthfully...
siging off at 1632
tired + agitated + sad...